La vie en rose

81,2

2010-10-23T13:19:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 81,2 kg
Current weight loss: 0,8 kg
Current feeling: happy
Total weight loss: 27,8 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 244 days

82

2010-10-15T22:34:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 82 kg
Current weight loss: 1,1 kg
Current feeling: glad
Total weight loss: 27 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 237 days

My life is very busy at the moment. I'll try to update somewhere this week (if I find the energy).

83,1

2010-10-08T22:32:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 83,1 kg
Current weight loss: 1,7 kg GAIN
Current feeling: super tired
Total weight loss: 26,9 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 230 days

81,4

2010-10-01T22:29:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 81,4 kg
Current weight loss: 0,8 kg
Current feeling: happy
Total weight loss: 28,6 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 223 days

Fit-o-meter: September

2010-09-30T19:15:00.000+02:00

1/sep : 1h40’ bycycling (30 km)
2/sep :
3/sep :
4/sep : 8,8 km walk
5/sep : 5 km walk
6/sep : 45’swim + 1h30’ walk
7/sep : 45’ swim (62 laps) + 2h bycycling
8/sep : 45’ swim (62 laps)
9/sep : 45’ swim (62 laps) + 2h45’ bycycling (55 km)
10/sep : 45’ swim
11/sep : 7,4 km walk + 3h25’ bybycling (63 km)
12/sep : 2h15’ walk (11 km)
13/sep : 40’ swim (56 laps)
14/sep :
15/sep :
16/sep : 45’ swim (60 laps)
17/sep : 45’ swim (64 laps)
18/sep : 8 km walk + 40 km bycycling
19/sep : 1h walk
20/sep : 40’ swim
21/sep : 45’ swim (60 laps)
22/sep : 45’ swim (60 laps)
23/sep : 45’ swim (60 laps)
24/sep : 45’ swim (66 laps)
25/sep : 30’ walk
26/sep : 6,2 km walk
27/sep : 45’ swim + 8,2 km walk
28/sep : 45’ swim (66 laps)
29/sep :
30/sep : 45’ swim (70 laps)
31/sep : 45’ swim (64 laps)

Weigh-in.

2010-09-24T10:39:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 82,2 kg
Current weight loss: 0,4 kg
Current feeling: confident
Total weight loss: 27,8 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 216 days

Everything is ok, feeling great.

No worries.

2010-09-17T10:37:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 82,6 kg
Current weight loss: 0,6 kg gain
Current feeling: content
Total weight loss: 27,4 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 209 days

My goal for 2010 was to weight around 80 kg by the end of the year. Because I lost so much weight the past weeks I’m trying to stay around the 82 kg for a while.

Livin' la vida sana for more then 200 days!!

2010-09-10T10:36:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 82kg
Current weight loss: status quo
Current feeling: content
Total weight loss: 28 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 202 days

Still happy

2010-09-03T10:33:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 82kg
Current weight loss: 1 kg
Current feeling: fantastic
Total weight loss: 28 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 195 days

Fit-o-meter: August

2010-08-31T18:49:00.000+02:00

The first three weeks of august I was on holiday.

1/aug :
2/aug : 1h30’ walk
3/aug :
4/aug : 1h bycycling
5/aug : 2h walk
6/aug :
7/aug : 1h walk
8/aug : 1h walk
9/aug : 1h walk
10/aug : 1h walk
11/aug : 1h walk
12/aug :
13/aug : 1h walk
14/aug : 1h walk
15/aug : 2h bycycling
16/aug : 1h walk
17/aug :
18/aug : 1h walk
19/aug :
20/aug : 45’ swim (60 laps) + 1h30’ bycycling
21/aug : 5,3 km walk
22/aug : 7,3 km walk
23/aug : 40’ swim (52 laps)
24/aug : 45’ swim (68 laps !)
25/aug :
26/aug : 45’ swim (60 laps)
27/aug : 40’ swim
28/aug : 1h walk
29/aug :
30/aug : 40’ swim
31/aug : 45’ swim (60 laps)

This truly was the best summer I had in a decade.

Happy

2010-08-27T18:35:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 83kg
Current weight loss: 0,7
Current feeling: happy
Total weight loss: 27 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 188 days

Hot damn.

2010-08-20T18:33:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 83,7 kg
Current weight loss: 3kg in three weeks
Current feeling: glowy
Total weight loss: 26,3 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 181 days

I did a quick update of the weigh-in before I left on holiday. The last weeks of July were brutal. I had to work 12 hours a day, ran around stressed every day. My batteries ran out. I felt like crying a lot. Sometimes my job really sucks.

Needless to say I was thrilled when my 3 weeks holiday arrived. I went to Germany and the Czech Republic. Beautiful countries and Prague is one of the most beautiful cities I have ever been too.

No my batteries are on high again, I feel great and ready for whatever that will cross my path. Good or bad.

Fit-o-meter: July

2010-07-31T22:26:00.000+02:00

1/jul : 45’ swim (62 laps)
2/jul : 45’ swim
3/jul : 1h30’ bicycling
4/jul : 7 km walk (1h15’) + 2h bicycling
5/jul : 45’ swim (64 laps)
6/jul : 45’ swim (62 laps)
7/jul : 1h30’ bicycling
8/jul : 1h bicycling
9/jul : 45’ swim (62 laps) +2h bicycling
10/jul : 2h30’ bicycling ( = 45 km!)
11/jul : 2h30’ walk
12/jul : 45’ swim (62 laps) + 1h30’ bicycling
13/jul : 45’ swim (62 laps)
14/jul : 45’ swim + 1h bicycling
15/jul : 45’ swim (60 laps)
16/jul : 45’ swim (64 laps) + 3h15’ bicycling (Tabacoroute)
17/jul : 3h45’ bicycling (50km)
18/jul : 2h15’ walk (13 km)
19/jul : 45’ swim + 1h30’ bicycling
20/jul : 45’ swim
21/jul : 30’ bycycling + 1h walk
22/jul : 45’ walk
23/jul :
24/jul : 6,4 km walk
25/jul : 11,2 km walk
26/jul :
27/jul : 30’ walk
28/jul :
29/jul : 45’ swim (68 laps !)
30/jul : 30’ swim
31/jul : 30’ walk (left on holiday)

Good week

2010-07-30T22:14:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 86,7 kg
Current weight loss: 1,4 kg
Current feeling: happy, I’m leaving on holiday! Yiehaaaaaw
Total weight loss: 23,3 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 160 days

Bad week.

2010-07-23T22:13:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 88,1 kg
Current weight loss: - 1,2 kg (aka gain)
Current feeling: overworked
Total weight loss: 21,9 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 153 days (still counting)

So-so.

2010-07-16T22:50:00.002+02:00

Current weight: 86,9 kg
Current weight loss: 1,3 kg
Current feeling: so-so
Total weight loss: 23,1 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 146 days

It was beautiful weather this week and I ended every workday with a biking trip. Aaaagh, wonderful. I wish we had such a great weather all year long.

On Sunday I went to a local festival with friends and ended the night overeating... Stupid.
I went immediately back on track on Monday and did well for the rest of the week. Thanks to that and my exercise I still lost weight this week but I’m having a lack of self-confidence.

20 weeks

2010-07-12T22:38:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 88,2 kg
Current weight loss: 0,6 kg
Current feeling: busy with work and excercise
Total weight loss: 21,8 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 139 days

Feeling fantastic.

2010-07-02T21:40:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 88,8 kg
Current weight loss: 0 kg
Current feeling: wondering if Marta is ok
Total weight loss: 21,2 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 132 days

No loss. But still 88,8 kg. That's still mind bobbling. Me. Eighties. Wow.

And I had the perfect weekend. First the two day festival with fantastic festival weather and fantastic music. On Saturday I went shopping and bought myself some fantastic new clothes (I’m officially a size less *yay*). And on Sunday we visited family and together with my niece I went to the fair in Antwerp. It had been a long time since I laughed so much. I laughed so hard I was afraid that I would pee in my pants. And at night we had a yummy barbeque. Life can’t get much better that that.

This week it was back to normal at work, and soon my happy mood disappeared. I really need to start looking for a new job. I feel miserably when I think about my job. Okay, enough whining. It’s weekend. That means two days of resting and relaxing and not thinking about work. Now, do it!

Fit-o-meter: June

2010-06-30T21:39:00.001+02:00

1/jun : 45’ swim
2/jun :
3/jun : 45’ swim (62 laps)
4/jun : 45’ swim (60 laps)
5/jun : 2h walk
6/jun : 2h walk by the sea :)
7/jun : 45’ swim (64 laps) + 30’ walk
8/jun : 45’ swim (62 laps) + 30’ walk
9/jun : 30’ walk
10/jun : 45’ swim (62 laps)
11/jun : 45’ swim (60 laps) + 30’ walk
12/jun : 10,2 km walk (2h) + 2h bicycling to Ypres
13/jun : 10,8 km walk (2h)
14/jun : 45’ swim (62 laps)
15/jun : 45’ swim (60 laps)
16/jun : 45’ swim (70 laps) YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY
17/jun :
18/jun : 45-50’ swim (70 laps) + 30’ walk
19/jun : 45’ walk
20/jun : 60’ walk
21/jun : 45’ swim (62 laps)
22/jun : mowing the lawn
23/jun : 30’ walk
24/jun : 30’ walk
25/jun :
26/jun : 1h15’ walk (6,5 km)
27/jun : 1h15’ walk (6 km)
28/jun : 45’ swim (64 laps)
29/jun : 45’ swim (60 laps) + 30’ walk
30/jun : 30’ walk

The good stuff: I finally started doing girly push-ups again.
The bad stuff: still didn't do any bodybalance or bodypump workouts.

Hello eighties!

2010-06-26T22:26:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 88,8 kg
Current weight loss: 1,6 kg
Current feeling: surprised
Total weight loss: 21,2 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 125 days

Don’t have time to write anything, right now except...
EIGHTIES! EIGHTIES! EIGHTIES!
More later...

HOORAY HOORAY 125 days of eating well

2010-06-25T22:09:00.000+02:00

125 days!

It's summertime.

2010-06-24T22:04:00.003+02:00

I'm feeling good. I'm happy because tomorrow it's weekend. And this time that means two lazy days of relaxing: seeing groups at the local festival, drinking beers with friends and listen to damn good music. I'm planning to do nothing else than that. *happy sigh*

Nil volentibus arduum *

2010-06-20T22:53:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 90,4 kg
Current weight loss: 1,6 kg
Current feeling: surprised
Total weight loss: 19,6 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 118 days

90,4 kg. Whoa. This made my day.

I feel like I’m not doing well lately. I feel like hanging on a borderline due to work related problems. On most days this week I was able to put it aside and to focus on other things when my workday was over. On those days I also did great eating wise. On the other days my eating was ok, but it was hard.

Bottom-line is that I’m still an emotional eater. But the good news is that I see every day as a new start. And I get back on track immediately. This makes me proud of myself.

And now I weight 90,4 kg. I never thought this was possible 118 days ago. Well, I knew I could do it, but I never thought it would go so fast! I try not to be weight obsessed. And because I have been a scale slut the last twenty years of my life, I started to weight myself only once a week and for the rest forget about it. But these last days I thought of my weight a lot, and every time it brought a big fat grin on my face. Nil volentibus arduum.

* Nothing is impossible if you really want it.

TGIF - part deux

2010-06-13T19:30:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 92 kg
Current weight loss: 0,7 kg
Current feeling: TGIF
Total weight loss: 18 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 111 days

A 0,7 kg loss. I’m getting away with a lot here. I haven’t been eating too well lately. Last Friday, I ended up eating way too much snacks and appetizers. In the week I did ok, but it was always on the border. It was always fighting not to have an eating attack. If it hadn’t been because of my regular exercise I would have gained.

I’m going through a hellish time at work and I’m drained. This has been going on for almost a half year now and I’m worn out. I’m seriously considering quitting my job. When you feel like crying when you think at your job, it’s time for a change. I’ll give it another half year, but if things aren’t much better by then, I’m gone.

I know overeating won’t help this situation at all. It will make me feel worse. But I’m just not thinking straight. *sigh*

About being happy.

2010-06-07T22:24:00.002+02:00

Ain't that the truth.

TGIF

2010-06-04T22:32:00.002+02:00

Current weight: 92,7 kg
Current weight loss: 0,3 kg
Current feeling: TGIF
Total weight loss: 17,3 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 104 days

And another 0,3kg bites the dust. Eat that, dust.

Last Monday I weighted myself for my monthly update (see left sidebar) and I gained 0,2 kg since then. But frankly I don’t give a damn. And I don't care much for anything lately.
I’m just super duper happy that the workweek is over. YAY FOR WEEKENDS.

30 reasons (anno 2004, 2008, 2010)

2010-06-02T21:35:00.003+02:00

1. To counter the history of diabetes in my family.
2. Be fit, healthy and strong.
3. Be full of go.
4. Feel comfortable in my own skin for the rest of my life.
5. No to be ashamed anymore about the way I look.
6. To be in control of myself and to be disciplined.
7. To feel connected to my body, not just live inside my head.
8. To enjoy exercising and using my body.
9. To enjoy being physical.
10. To wear clothes that fit comfortably.
11. To stop trying to be invisible to people and being more confident to talk to people.
12. To never be limited by my weight.
13. To not being ashamed to stand on photos.
14. Wear high heels and sexy dresses if I want to.
15. To get outside more often.
16. Enjoy going to the beach with friends.
17. Wear a bikini one day, maybe.
18. Wear the clothes I want to wear and not only the clothes I fit in.
19. To be able to wear a skirt without tights in summer.
20. To never have my inner thighs chafing again.
21. Walk up stairs without getting breathless and sweaty.
22. Go dancing and not being ashamed about the way I look.
23. Feel confident and sexy.
24. To wear pretty lingerie and not looking too bad in it.
25. Not feel ashamed about how much 'seat space' I take (train, bus, car, cafe).
26. Not seeing the disgust in other peoples eyes about the way I look.
27. To not have flabby arms and to be able to wear tank tops.
28. Not feel self conscious and paranoid about my size all the time.
29. To stop thinking 'Ugh' everytime I see myself in a mirror.
30. To be happy/comfortable about the way I look

100 days!!!!

2010-06-01T23:11:00.001+02:00

I made it! 100 days of eating healthy and regular exercise. Done!
I weighted myself today and saw 92,5 kg on the scale. That means I lost 18,5 kg in 100 days. ?!?

100 days deserve a celebration. And I decided to give myself a new haircut. I was about to wait until the end of June. But I thought I needed to spoil myself for accomplishing my goal. I can’t believe I made it so far. 100 days. WOW

That also means I need to make some new mini-milestones.

And now, up to 200!

Fit-o-meter: May

2010-05-31T21:44:00.001+02:00

1/may :
2/may :
3/may : 45’ swim (64 laps)
4/may : 45’ swim (66 laps)
5/may : 45’ swim (60 laps)
6/may : 45’ swim (60 laps)
7/may : 45’ swim (60 laps)
8/may : 30’ walk
9/may :
10/may : 45’ swim (64 laps)
11/may : 45’ swim (60 laps)
12/may : 45’ swim (60 laps)
13/may : 1h bicycling (Limburgia)
14/may : 2h walk
15/may : 1h walk
16/may :
17/may : 45’ swim (60 laps)
18/may : 45’ swim (62 laps)
19/may : 45’ swim (60 laps)
20/may : 30’ walk
21/may :
22/may : 2h bicycling (to Ypres)
23/may : 2h bicycling (to Ypres)
24/may : 3h bicycling (50km, around Ypres with a co-worker)
25/may : 30’ walk
26/may : 45’ walk
27/may : 45’ swim (54 laps)
28/may : 45’ swim (60 laps)
29/may :
30/may :
31/may : 45’ swim (60 laps)

YAY

2010-05-28T11:29:00.000+02:00

I just became the proud aunt of my new nephew. Both mum (aka my sister) and baby are ok! YAY

The ultimate goal should be doing your best... and enjoying it --

2010-05-28T10:22:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 93 kg
Current weight loss: 1 kg
Current feeling: dazed
Total weight loss: 17 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 97

97 days of eating healthy and a loss of 17 kg. Whoa.

I lost three clothing sizes and am now in a weight zone where I don’t have anything in my closet that fits me. I need to go shopping. I feel annoyingly uncomfortable now I have to walk around with clothes a size or two too big. And feeling uncomfortable mostly leads to overeating which won’t help me reach my goal. Shopping trip, now.

Food wise I’m doing good. I let myself eat everything but with measure which seems to do the trick for me. Every morning I eat 50gr of muesli with fat free fruit flavoured yoghurt, a kiwi and some blueberries. Since a month I also add 10 grams of walnuts. 100 days ago I wouldn’t be able to stick to 10 grams of walnuts a day. I would eat the whole bag of walnuts in one serving. Today, I finished my first bag of walnuts (after one month). For me this is a huge improvement.

Exercise wise I’m doing good too. Last week I did three long biking trips. One was with a co-worker and together we went for a 50km ride! And that went so easily I couldn’t believe we did such a distance (through hilly scenery). The swimming, walking and biking of the last three months is paying off big time.

Now, I have to keep up the good work and up to the 100 days of healthy living.

--Unkown

Where there's a will, there's a way.

2010-05-25T21:58:00.005+02:00

Current weight: 94 kg (Friday, May 21st)
Current weight loss: 2,1 kg
Current feeling: happy
Total weight loss: 16 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 90

My holiday was absolutely great. The camping trip was quite Spartan (no showers, no sinks…) but worth the effort. We had quizzes, a costume ball, walks, a bike tour, a museum visit and great company. It was fun, fun, fun and I actually managed to not think about my work for a day or two. Now, that’s what I call a success.

Food has been good too, during the camping trip. I enjoyed the food, the appetizers etc but I stayed within my limits. Maybe I’m finally learning it. :)

Wednesday weigh-in.

2010-05-12T13:28:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 96,1 kg
Current weight loss: 0,4 kg
Current feeling: relieved
Total weight loss: 13,9 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 80

Early weigh-in this week since I’m leaving on a camping trip in a few hours.

I’m relieved I lost 0,4 kg this week (euhm, these last 5 days). Last Sunday we had a big dinner with family and I ate a lot. I had saved a lot of points for it. But I still felt really rotten that evening since I overate. Together with the rest of the family. We really need to stop making so many courses. It’s over the top. All we do is eat all day long. We started with a brunch, then went to my sisters place for cake, then went back home and had too much appetizers. Then we had soup, then the main course and we finished with dessert.

Ouch.

I need to go now, I'll try to post again on Sunday.

1/3 down, 2/3 to go.

2010-05-09T12:29:00.000+02:00

Current weight: 96,5 kg
Current weight loss: 1,0 kg
Current feeling: flabbergasted
Total weight loss: 13,5 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 76

96,5 kg, holy cow. I’m 3 weeks in the nineties and it finally starts to dawn at me. I did notice that my formerly tight jeans now sit very comfortable. *doing a happy dance* But still 96,5 kg, woah.

Aaaaaaaand, I just realised that right now I’m already 1/3 to my goal!
1/3 of the total amount of weight that I want to lose is gone. Done, dusted, goodbye, don’t come again.

Food and exercise wise all things where good this week. I’ve only been swimming this week because it has been cold and rainy the whole time. Also it has been crazily stressful at work, like usual, but my morning swims makes me deal with it so much better. I’m proud of that.

Next week I’ll weigh-in on Wednesday because I’m leaving that day for a five-day-camping-trip with some friends. There’s nothing wrong with enjoying food, but I hope to stay on track those days. It’s harder to do when there’s food everywhere and everybody wants you to try everything out. Also I have this huge brunch and dinner coming (there’s some family coming over in a half hour) and I’m a bit worried.

75 days

2010-05-06T23:03:00.000+02:00

Fit-o-meter: April

2010-04-30T19:41:00.002+02:00

1/apr : 45’ swim (60 laps) + 30’ walk
2/apr : 45’ swim (60 laps)
3/apr :
4/apr :
5/apr :
6/apr : 45’ swim
7/apr : 45’ swim (65 laps)
8/apr : 45’ swim (67 laps)
9/apr : 45’ swim (60 laps)
10/apr :
11/apr : 13 km walk (2h15)
12/apr : 45’ swim (64 laps)
13/apr : 45’ swim
14/apr : 45’ bicycling
15/apr :
16/apr :
17/apr : 60’ bicycling
18/apr : 1h45’ bicycling (to Ypres)
19/apr :
20/apr : 45’ swim + 60’ bicycling (to my sister’s place)
21/apr : 45’ swim (64 laps)
22/apr : 45’ swim (62 laps)
23/apr : 45’ swim (60 laps)
24/apr : 1h45’ bicycling (to Ypres)
25/apr : 60’ bicycling (to my sister’s place)
26/apr : 45’ swim (62 laps)
27/apr : 45’ swim (66 laps)
28/apr :
29/apr : 45’ swim (60 laps)
30/apr : 45’ swim (60 laps)

I re-started bicycling. All thanks to the beautiful weather we had this month. My goal is to bike to Ypres every weekend, when the weather is permitting.

Where there's a will, there's a way.

2010-04-30T19:40:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 97,5 kg
Current weight loss: 0,7 kg
Current feeling: smiley
Total weight loss: 12,5 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 69

97,5 kg. Wow. My third week in the nineties. Wow. My tenth week of livin’ la vida sana. Wow. Es espectacular.

It’s amazing how great I feel after ten weeks of healthy eating and no eating attacks. I feel so much fitter and mentally I’m a better place too. I’m much happier and relaxed than ten weeks ago. It’s crazy how much it matters.

I’m really looking forward to the next weeks. Next week I take a day of to babysit my nephew and the week after that I’m going away for a 5 day camping trip with friends. Yay!

The best is yet to come.

2010-04-25T22:14:00.001+02:00

Current weight: 98,2 kg
Current weight loss: 1,4 kg
Current feeling: sporty
Total weight loss: 11,8 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 62

I felt it in my clothes I lost some weight this week. My new jeans (the second new jeans since I started my diet) wasn’t as tight as the week before. *doing a happy dance*

My week was packed with exercise. Only on Monday I didn’t do anything (except biking to work). Mainly I go swimming and bicycling. I hope this good weather last a long time because I love to be outdoors. I love to feel the sun on my skin while I’m biking to my sisters’ place or to Ypres. And I love spring. The scenery looks beautiful already while I know the best is yet to come.

And that’s how I feel too. Up to a new great week.

Goodbye 100, hello nineties.

2010-04-18T20:55:00.004+02:00

Current weight: 99,6 kg
Current weight loss: 1,9 kg
Current feeling: light
Total weight loss: 10,4 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 55

Holy macaroni, 99,6 kg. I can’t believe this.
I’m under the 100 kilo. After two years of trying and failing every time I got close I finally did it. Whoa.

I’m super happy I made it under the 100 kg. But much more important is that I feel great. The last three years I felt grossly fat. But lately I just feel fit. Fantastically fit, I must say. I’m still too fat but I know I will get to a normal weigh-zone if I stay positive about it, believe in myself and try to do my best every day. I can do this. And that feels great.

Last week we had great sunny weather and I started biking again. On Thursday I tried to bike to my sister’s place but had to stop halfway because I was out of breath. Yesterday I biked to my grandmothers and it went well. Today I tried biking to Ypres and I made the round trip in a record time (1h45). :)

50 days!

2010-04-11T19:54:00.001+02:00

10 things I did great last month.

2010-04-10T15:10:00.000+02:00

1) I managed to eat healthy e-v-e-r-y day. I had NO eating attacks.
2) I kept a food journal every day.
3) Did exercise as much as I could
4) Enjoyed doing the above a lot
5) Had some good talks with friends & nice nights out
6) Stayed away from junk food when I had the change to eat it
7) On family visits I enjoyed the food but with measure
8) I could counter the stress at work much better than usual
9) I made the best of every day
10) I believed in myself

I can do this.

2010-04-09T22:16:00.002+02:00

Current weight: 101,5 kg
Current weight loss: 0,8 kg
Current feeling: light
Total weight loss: 8,5 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 48

Wohoot! 48 days of living healthy and exercising regularly. 48 days without an eating attack. Yes, I can do it! I promised myself to buy some blueberries if I made it through this week. I love blueberries but they’re so expensive around here. Well, I’m getting myself some tomorrow, I deserved them.

This week has been hellish. I’m home alone and my grandmother had to be hospitalised on Monday. She’s ok now although there not letting here go home, yet. So, last week I spent my time working and visiting my grandmother. She’s alone and deaf, so she’s grateful to have someone to ‘talk’ to from time to time. I hope she can go home soon.

I am really trying to be more online; to post more and to read more blogs but lately I just haven’t been able to. More luck next week.

Small steps

2010-04-04T11:40:00.002+02:00

Current weight: 102,3 kg
Current weight loss: 2,3 kg
Current feeling: light
Total weight loss: 7,7 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 41

A 2,3 kg loss. Damn, I had to look twice yesterday morning to make sure I wasn’t seeing things. I still can’t believe it. 102,3 kg, that’s fantastic.

Also, I doing good for 41 days in a row now. And since 41 days I only weighted myself once a week and once every first of the month (for my monthly stats - see left sidebar). I stopped weighting myself every day after seeing a show on tv where they explained how useless it is to weight yourself a lot. It’s the size of your clothes that counts. That daily number on the scale isn’t saying much. So, in 41 days, I’ve only weighted myself 7 times, which is an all time low for me. And I have to say it, it’s delightful not weighting myself every day. Even when I knew that daily fluctuations in my weight didn’t mean anything that daily number used to make or ruin my day in the past. I’m not planning to go weighting myself more anytime soon.

For the rest I had a good week. I did a lot of sport and ate healthy every day. I had some days I didn’t feel too good and wanted to eat everything that came in sight, but I didn’t. I realised it was just emotional and I managed to do something else with my bad mood (I went to bed early). It might sound stupid but it means a whole lot that I didn’t throw myself on food. Small steps...

Fit-o-meter: March

2010-03-31T21:45:00.001+02:00

1/mar : 45’ swim (60 laps !) YAY
2/mar : 45’ swim (58 laps)
3/mar :
4/mar : *
5/mar : *
6/mar : 10,5 km walk (2 hours)
7/mar : 6 km walk (1 hour)
8/mar : *
9/mar : 45’ swim (60 laps)
10/mar : 45’ swim (60 laps)
11/mar : 45’ swim (62 laps)
12/mar : 45’ swim (60 laps)
13/mar : 30’ walk
14/mar : 9 km walk (100’)
15/mar : 40’ swim (50 laps) + 10,5 km walk (2 hours)
16/mar : 45’ swim (60 laps) + 7,5 km walk (1,5 hours)
17/mar : 45’ swim (58 laps)
18/mar : 45’ swim (63 laps) + 30’ walk
19/mar :
20/mar : 6 km walk (1 hour)
21/mar :
22/mar : 45’ swim (64 laps)
23/mar : 45’ swim (62 laps)
24/mar : 40’ swim
25/mar : 45’ swim (66 laps)
26/mar : 45’ swim (60 laps)
27/mar : 12,3 km walk (2h10)
28/mar :
29/mar : 45’ swim (62 laps)
30/mar : 45’ swim (66 laps)
31/mar : 45’ swim (66 laps)

On the * days I wasn’t able to do any exercise (it was not that I did not want to).

Weigh-in.

2010-03-29T22:40:00.002+02:00

Current weight: 104,6 kg
Current weight loss: 0 kg
Current feeling: light
Total weight loss: 5,4 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 34 !

Well, Friday I weighted in on 104,6 kg. No loss on the scales but that’s fine by me. It will happen later, anyway. I’m sure I lost a few centimetres since I my new jeans is falling off my butt again. And that makes me feel so much better than seeing no change on the scale.

And I also have a new incentive to lost weight. I need a new picture for my passport. *sigh* I really hate those damn passport pictures. I always look totally terrible in them. And I thought I had a long time to go before I needed to make new ones but last weekend I met an old high school friend who is exactly one month older than me and she had just made new pictures that day. Sucks.

Oh well. For the rest everything is fine with me. Long days at work (hence the lack of posts) but I still manage to swim before work. This makes me absurdly proud of myself. I’m also happy with the fact that I’m already doing good for so long. My zest in live is coming back.

Life may not always be the party we hoped for - but while we are here, we might as well dance. --

2010-03-19T19:29:00.005+01:00

Current weight: 104,6 kg
Current weight loss: 1,2 kg
Current feeling: stressed
Total weight loss: 5,4 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 27

27 days of living healthy. I haven’t done this good in years. Now I come to think of it, I haven’t done this good since I started my current job. Hmmm.

Eating wise everything went perfect this week and exercise wise things where even better. I did something every day this week. And that really makes me happy.

The only negative thing is my job for the moment. I like the work but the workload has been doubled in the last months and it’s really not doable anymore. Everyday I’m under stress and almost everyday I go home with heartache and palpitations. It’s not fun anymore. *sigh*

Oh well, that’s just the way it is. I need to look at the bright side of life.
And it’s weekend. HOORAY

--Unkown

Hip hip hooray.

2010-03-17T20:14:00.003+01:00

Doing good for 20 days!

2010-03-15T17:55:00.007+01:00

Current weight: 105,8 kg
Current weight loss: 1,4 kg
Current feeling: worried
Total weight loss: 4,2 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 20 *wohoot*

20 days of living healthy and feeling great. *doing a little dance* It’s amazing what regular exercise and healthy food does for my mood. I hope to stay in this zone for a long time.

But I am a bit worried. In the past I always end up screwing things up. And although I refuse to forbid myself to eat unhealthy things (but with measure) I feel like there’s a big nasty cloud is hanging above my head.

I know it’s stupid to think that way. But I can’t help it.

I need to stop the self-loathing and deal with the past. I need to be more positive about me. I need to start believing that I will get there in the end. And even if I screw up on the way there, just to pick myself up and go for it again. I will get there in the end.

I can do this!

"A man is but the product of his thoughts what he thinks, he becomes." Mahatma Gandhi

Feeling awesome.

2010-03-07T16:29:00.002+01:00

Current weight: 107,2 kg
Current weight loss: 1,5 kg
Current feeling: awesome
Total weight loss: 2,8 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 13

I'm feeling pretty fantastic. Monday I swam 60 laps in 45 minutes. I reached my goal. My eating has been great and on exercise front I have been doing well too.

Oh, and Friday I went out for dinner with some friends and unfortunately wasn’t able to wear the dress. My goal now is to be able to wear it the next time we meet (April 9th, we're going to play pool).

February - review

2010-03-01T21:33:00.003+01:00

When I look back on February I am content.

I ate healthy and on track for 22 days and ate stupidly on 6 days. That’s not that bad. Of course I wish I had more brains to stay at track all February long, but 22 days on 28 days is a start.

This morning I weighted-in on 108 kg. That means I lost 2 kg this month. That’s good. I was also quite active all month long. I did exercise every week. Maybe not as consistently spread over the month as I would have wanted. But all by all I did a good job, definitely considering the weather conditions we had.

Of course, I want to do better next month. My goal is not to sabotage myself this month and not to make a grab at food whenever I feel bad or bored. I really would like to make it through the month without any food attacks. And if I really really really really really really really really really can’t help doing it, that it at least might be healthy food. *sigh*

Exercise wise I want to do something active at least every other day, to compensate my absolute lack of activity at work (for my job I need to sit after my desk all day long and if I wouldn’t do any exercise at all, I probably would only get about 1000 steps a day). Oh, and to do at least one body balance workout. That’s it, those are all my goals in March. I’ll update again at the end of the month. xxx

Fit-o-meter: February

2010-02-28T13:49:00.001+01:00

1/feb : 15’swim
2/feb : 30’swim
3/feb :
4/feb :
5/feb :
6/feb : 6,4 km walk (1,25 hours)
7/feb : 6,6 km walk
8/feb : 30’swim
9/feb : 30’swim
10/feb :
11/feb :
12/feb :
13/feb : 6 km walk
14/feb : 6 km walk
15/feb :
16/feb :
17/feb :
18/feb :
19/feb :
20/feb : 5,5 km walk (1 hour)
21/feb : 5,5 km walk (1 hour)
22/feb : 30’ swim
23/feb : 45’ swim (50 laps) + 5,5 km walk (1 hour)
24/feb :
25/feb : 45’ swim (56 laps)
26/feb : 45’ swim (56 laps)
27/feb : 11 km walk (2 hours)
28/feb :

I’m on a roll with the swimming since I challenged myself to be able to swim 60 laps (that’s 1,5 km) in 45 minutes. I’m getting close.

I’m feeling very sportive lately. And I can’t wait to get better weather (as in not raining all the time) and longer light in the evening to be able to bike after work. I miss my weekly trips to my sister’s place or to Ypres.

What I didn’t do this month was doing some body balance workouts. It would be a great strength training, but I was too lazy to install my yoga mat...

Failure is only the opportunity to more intelligently begin again.-

2010-02-26T21:08:00.008+01:00

Current weight: 108,7 kg
Current weight loss: 0,7 kg
Current feeling: sporty
Total weight loss: 1,3 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 6

I didn’t weigh-in last week because I didn’t want to know my weight. I went of track a few days before and was in denial. I resumed a few days later and I’ve been doing well since last weekend.

I’m disappointed in my lack of determination last week. I’m not starving myself and I’m don’t refrain myself of some kinds of food. I’m just trying to make healthier lifetime changes. And I can’t even maintain that. I feel like I have no perseverance at all.

I know that, right now, I weight more that 5 years ago, when I started this. And I know that I eat much healthier and know more about healthy eating, then five years ago. But why am I weighting more now? I must be doing something seriously wrong. And I need to find a remedy for it. I need to think about this some more...

Well, at least I'm glad I got back on track and ate healthy this week. I feel much better too and very sporty. This week I challenged myself to swim 60 laps at the pool in 45 minutes. The last two times I stranded on 56 laps and I am determined to get 60 next week. I can’t wait until it’s Monday for a next attempt. :)

--Henry Ford

Hmmm.

2010-02-13T16:24:00.002+01:00

Current weight: 109,4 kg
Current weight loss: 0,6 kg
Current feeling: disappointed
Total weight loss: 0,6 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 12

Only 0,6 kg loss. This way I’ll never get in the dress on time. Damnit. And the thing that is bothering me the most is that I actually gained these last 12 days. I weighted myself the first of February: 109 kg. Last week I weighted myself again: 110 kg, while I really watched my food intake. And this week I end up at 109,4 kg. It sucks that I still didn’t get under the 109 kg.

Also, I realize that I weight way too much, but on some days I really don’t feel fat at all. These last days, I felt sooooo absurdly fat, so gross.

*sigh*

Well, there’s only one thing I can do about it. Eat healthy. Exercise.

And the so far I’m doing great on both. In the end, it will pay off.

It will.

Do the thing you think you cannot do.

2010-02-09T18:42:00.000+01:00

Mini-milestones.

2010-02-07T15:09:00.001+01:00

Lose 10 kilo, get a two-number weight. I know there’s only a kilo difference between 99 and 100 but it feels like a very big deal to me to get back in the two-number weight zone. I’ve weighted above the hundred for almost two years now, and it’s been enough.

Follow one body balance class a week. I need to spice up my exercise. The only thing I’ve been doing the last half year was swimming and walking. I used to love body balance but I found it hard to do it at home, on my own. So, my goal for February 2010 is to do a body balance workout once a week. A half hour is already great, more is even better.

Keep a food and exercise journal. I already do both but mostly I’m very sloppy with it. Sometimes I skip a week. I want to keep a food and exercise journey for a whole year long. Just to see how I’m doing and to examine how I’m evolving.

Make the best of every day, every day again. If I get of track, get back on track immediately. Not the next day. Immediately. Because tomorrow always turns in next week, next month and next year.

At the beginnings of March I’ll do a check-up on my mini-milestones.

Oops.

2010-02-06T17:16:00.001+01:00

Current weight: 110 kg
Current weight gain: 3,6 kg
Total weight loss: 0 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 5

Damn. Today I’m back at where I’m started on the first of January. 3,6kg gain in three weeks. *awch* Oh well, at least I’ve done fine for the last 5 days. And my spirits are still high. 110 kg or not.

I have a goal this month. I want to eat healthy for 28 days in a row. If I make it I’ll reward myself with new clothes. For every day I eat healthy I’ll save a euro. If I make it until the end of the month I’ll double the money (28 euro x 2 = 56 euro) and I’ll buy myself something nice to wear.

Also I’m having a dinner with a few friends the 5th of March and I want to lose some kilos until then. I have a nice dress hanging in my closet witch will look great on my jeans. I fits me, but it would look better if I lose a kilo or two… I have the dress hanging on my door to motivate me. :) so far it’s working :)

Still alive.

2010-02-04T21:50:00.007+01:00

I kind of fell of the wagon after last post. This week I found the motivation to get on the right track again. I've been eating healthy for four days so far and I feel great. It's unbelievable how healthy eating gets you of your cranky mind. Fat unhealthy food messes your my mind!

So far, so good.

2010-01-16T16:59:00.004+01:00

Current weight: 106,4 kg
Current weight loss: 0,1 kg
Total weight loss: 3,6 kg
Total days of livin’ healthy: 14!

Okay, so it’s only a 0,1kg loss. I don’t mind. I’ve been living healthy for 14 days and I am very happy with that. On some days I ate too much points but I always compensated by saving points the days after. I know it would be better if I would be more regular in my eating but not capable yet to do that. I will get there once, I’m sure of that.

I feel great. Healthy eating makes me feel good. And fit. Even though I didn’t had any exercise last week, except biking to my work. The weather is just too bad to walk or to bike to the pool and I didn’t make time to do some inside workouts on my own. I will improve in that too, in the coming weeks.

I’m happy with last week. My job has been quite demanding these last two weeks but that didn’t make me want to throw myself on food, like it normally does. I’m glad with that.

It’s been a good week.

12 days

2010-01-12T22:04:00.003+01:00

First the good news: I'm doing good for 12 days on a row. 12 days of counting points and eating healthy.

Hip hip hooray for that. And a pat on the back.

On the other side... I have to amid that it helps to stay upstairs after my evening meal. Pretty embarrassing, honestly. When it's about food, I'm not be trusted.

*sigh*

I often wonder how I got this obsession on food. When did it start? How? Why? I feel like it has always been there, but that can't be.
I must have been normal, once.

Lazy Sunday

2010-01-10T15:42:00.003+01:00

Current weight: 106,5 kg
Current weight loss: 3,5 kg

My plan was to start a whole new life and eating style in 2010 and so far things are going great. I started well on weight watchers points this year, but slipped a few days later. I recovered by saving lots of points in the end of the week. I ate an average of 24 points a days last week and was rewarded with a whopping 3,5 kg loss. *damn that feels good*

I’m a bit late with my weight in post because we celebrated New Year with a group of friends we go camping with. We started celebrated yesterday noon and ended an hour ago. It was fun. The rest of the day I'm going to spend reading. *happy sigh*

This week is going to be more normal than last week. It’s busy at work but for the rest there are no events planned, so I don’t need to save points.

I didn’t do a lot of exercise last week. I only did a walk last Sunday and didn’t went swimming. The weather was just too bad to risk it to bike to the pool. I hope the weather starts to improve soon.

Anyway, I’m proud of how I handled things last week. Up to an even better new week.

A new decennium, a new start.

2010-01-03T22:22:00.001+01:00

I’m 28 years old and I there are lot of things I want to this year. I’m starting with writing down my list for 2010. Later I’ll post my other projects.

Lose 30 kilo
Read a book a month
Study
Go out with friends more
Enjoy life

Those are my goals for 2010. Here’s the explanation:

1. Loose 30 kilo. On the first of January I weighted in on 110 kilo. My goal is to weight 80 kilo by the end of the year. I feel fat and ugly and I want to change that feeling. Starting with eating healthier.
2. Read a book a month. I love reading but I haven’t been reading much for fun in the last decade. Since I started university and finished it years ago I only read study books or books for work. Now, I want to start reading for fun again. Years ago I started a list with books I wanted to read when I had the time for it. I realise now, I’ll have to make to read. And now my list is so long, I’ll probably take me a few years to make a dent in it.
3. Study more. I’m good in my job. But I want to get better and better. I’m thinking of going back to school to specialize me. Also I’m thinking of following the evening class of French, I need that for my work. And last but not least I’m thinking to start following piano lessons again. It’s been a decade since the last time I played, I miss it. I’m not going to do all three, but at least one of them.
4. Go out with my friends more. In the end of 2009 I bumped into old friend. We hadn’t seen each other in years, but once we got talking, it felt like we’re back on high school. I need to get out more and talk more with people. I need to stop isolating myself and want to learn to socialize more with people (I’m a loner).
5. Enjoy life. Do fun stuff. Go to theatre more, see movies, read books, meet friends. Go on a holiday. Live.

A new decennium, a new start.

2010-01-03T22:11:00.000+01:00

And I’m going to start with a new computer. *grmbl* This is the third time I’m trying to write this post down. And if my pc is breaking down again before finishing it, I’m giving up on posting at all. If I could afford it, I would’ve thrown this computer out of my window long ago. It’s just sooooo eye twitching annoying, it makes me see through a red haze.

*deep breath*

Okay, I feel better now. I’ll start again.

Fit-o-meter: November

2009-11-30T21:47:00.000+01:00

1/nov : 5,5km walk (1 hour)
2/nov : 8km walk (2 hours)
3/nov : 12km walk near the shore (3 hours)
4/nov :
5/nov :
6/nov : 10km walk (2,5 hours)
7/nov : 7,8km walk (1,5 hours)
8/nov :
9/nov : 30’ swim
10/nov : 30’ swim
11/nov : 11,6km walk (2,5 hours)
12/nov : 30’ swim
13/nov : 30’ swim
14/nov :
15/nov :
16/nov : 30’ swim
17/nov : 30’ swim
18/nov : 30’ swim
19/nov : 45’ swim
20/nov :
21/nov :14,5 km walk (3hours)
22/nov :
23/nov : 45’ swim
24/nov :
25/nov : 30’ swim
26/nov : 40’ swim
27/nov : 30’ swim
28/nov :
29/nov :
30/nov : 30’ swim

Weigh-in.

2009-11-12T21:08:00.002+01:00

I weighted in 104 kg this week. That’s a 3,2 kg more in 6 weeks. And it’s ‘only’ 104 kg because I ate healthy the week I was on vacation.

At the end of the summer I had the goal to weight under the hundred by my birthday. I missed it by a nose. But after my birthday I missed a challenge. I got myself in a downward spiral and gave up on my good intentions for the seventieth time this year.

But the vacation was great and gave me courage to go at it again. For the 71st time.

*smile*

I now have a subscription to the local pool and already went swimming three times in the last four days. The pool was closed on Wednesday due to Veterans Day.

*grin*

I’m on a roll. Hopefully on a long lasting upwards spiral.

Swimming.

2009-11-09T21:54:00.000+01:00

The holiday by the shore was perfect. The weather wasn’t great but good company made up for that. We went for long walks through beautiful scenery and fun nights with a lot of laughing. This was my first real holiday in 9 years and it was great.

This morning I got up early and went for a swim. I’ve been putting it of for a long time, but finally I was able to drag myself out of bed way too early to bike to the pool for a swim. The cool water woke me up and I have to amid it: it was great. I love swimming. I already went back after work and soon I’ll have my subscription to the pool. Yay!

Closed for holidays

2009-10-25T21:11:00.008+01:00

It will be quiet around here a bit longer. I'm leaving on vacation in a couple of days and I will be back to blogger-land in two weeks.

We're going for a camping holiday to a place near the Belgian coast (the pic above is where we're going). I love camping and I can't wait to leave, I don't mind that it probably will be cold and rainy. I'll be outside, in good-smelling healthy air. As long I'm away from my daily overdose of computers and too much food, I'm happy. I plan to do long walks, a lot of reading and just relax.

The first thing I'll do when I'm back in town, besides getting back to work (ha), is to take out a subscription to the local pool. Maybe I'll try to squeeze in some swimming this week already. My goal is to go for a morning swim before work 4 days a week. I will need to get up earlier but I need the daily exercise bad. Since it's gotten too cold and rainy outside to walk and bike I turned into a moody gloomy fat out of condition couch potato. It's time for some action.

sigh

2009-10-14T22:38:00.004+02:00

I haven't been around a lot these last weeks because I have a hard time getting back on track. These last days I've been lazying around & eating a lot. My weight is around 105 now, and I'm not really caring. I feel bad, but not bad enough to stop my bad behaviour. I just can't motivate myself.

Fit-o-meter: September

2009-10-01T22:18:00.001+02:00

1/sep :
2/sep :
3/sep :
4/sep :
5/sep : 2 hours bike ride (Ypres)
6/sep : 2 hour walk (10,2 km)
7/sep : 30’ walk
8/sep :
9/sep : 30’ walk
10/sep : 30’ walk
11/sep :
12/sep : 2 hour walk + 1 hour walk by the sea
13/sep : 1 hour walk
14/sep :
15/sep : 30’ walk
16/sep :
17/sep :
18/sep :
19/sep : 3 hour walk (near the shore)
20/sep : 1,5 hour walk
21/sep :
22/sep : 30’ walk
23/sep :
24/sep :
25/sep :
26/sep : 1 hour bike ride (halfway to Ypres, it was getting too dark)
27/sep : 2,5 hour walk
28/sep :
29/sep :
30/sep :

Weight in week 16

2009-10-01T22:11:00.004+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 100,8 kg
Current loss: 0,2 kg
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost so far: 9,2 kg
Weight to go: 30,8 kg

A 0,2kg loss this week. I don't deserve it. I had three bad days where I ate a lot of rubbish. It all started Friday. A co-worker had treated me shitty (I really need to start having some self-respect on work; some people are starting to treat me like a doormat) and I was so mad. I just started eating when I got home from work. And the feeling lasted until Sunday. *sigh*

I re-grouped at the start of this week and ate healthy since then. And I feel much better.
But I need to be braver at work because it's getting out of hand. Even my boss took me aside today and told me to have more self-respect and be self-confidence. The talk felt really uncomfortable but I know it's true. I always tear myself down, even when people give me a compliment I'm looking for the catch. I'm so negative, I just hate it. And I hate me, basically.

Bah.

Weight in week 15

2009-09-23T21:36:00.001+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 101 kg
Current loss: 1 kg
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost so far: 9 kg
Weight to go: 31 kg

Wohoo! 1 kg loss. 1! I love those rounded numbers.
I already lost 9 kg so far. I'm still over the hundred kilo but I'm getting closer to the two number weights. I can't wait to get under the 100 kilo, it feels like I haven't been in the 2-digit-numbers since forever... But damn, 9 kilo loss already, that's great.

Food was good last week, but I'm getting tired of always eating the same things. I need some variation but I'm not creative enough to find some alternatives. My breakfast is always muesli with a kiwi, yoghurt and skinny milk. That doesn't really need changes (maybe making my own muesli and adding some nuts) but in the evenings I'm always eating bread with low-fat cheese spread. I need to find some variations at night, maybe adding some pickles or salad... Maybe something totally different now and then. Hmmm.

Exercise was ok too, but I only did some walking. I need to do some other stuff too like swimming or adding a bodypump or bodybalance hour. I'm no longer a member of a sports club and I find it difficult to do it all on my own. And to find space to do it, for starters. I need to put my mind on it. But I'm l-a-z-y. *sigh*

Weight in week 14

2009-09-16T22:40:00.001+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 102 kg
Current loss: 1,5 kg
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost so far: 8 kg
Weigh to go: 32 kg

I actually weighted 101,8 kg this morning but I rounded up. I wasn't able to eat a lot yesterday since I had to work rather late. It just doesn't make sense to eat dinner at 9 pm. I prefer to eat something light and just crawl in bed. =)

Oh, I'm super happy with doing so well so long. 3 weeks of counting points and already an amazing loss. It feels great. I'm doing well on the exercise front too, but lately all I do is walking. I really want to start doing some bodybalance or bodypump too but I just don't have time right now. I also want to do some swimming in the morning now and then, I only start to work at 9 am so it must be doable... I must make time to do all those things. Maybe in the end of October when things cool down at work. Maybe earlier, I'll see what is practicable with work. One step at a time.

“If you want to know your future - look into your present actions."
- Buddhist saying

Weight in week 13

2009-09-10T21:29:00.002+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 103,5 kg
Current loss: 1 kg
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost so far: 6,5 kg
Weigh to go: 33,5 kg

A very short weigh-in this week since I leave on a mini trip to the sea tomorrow *yay* and I still have to pack everything tonight.

I'm happy with how my week went. Eating was absolutely perfect and I regularly did some exercise. I had to work late six days on a row this week and I'm quite amazed that I still managed to do something at all. Mostly I walked, but I also did a two hours bike trip to Ypres again (without eating ice cream). I’m happy. Up to a next good week.

Weight in week 12

2009-09-02T20:49:00.002+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 104,5 kg
Current loss: 1,5 kg
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost so far: 5,5 kg
Weigh to go: 34,5 kg

Hi everyone. I've been away for a while – studying on my exam. But now that's over (and I hope it's over for good) I want to focus all my energy on getting fitter and healthier.

*happy sigh* I already feels great just writing that down. Good.

Last week I started counting weight watchers points again and I did great all week long. Did some exercise in the weekend but slacked during the working week. It's hard to get my butt moving after work. :°/
Something to work on.

I want to start a challenge because that always seems to get myself moving in the good direction. Only I'm feeling really lazy at the moment and just thinking about it makes me yawn. Oops.
These last years I lost my zest of live at the same tempo my weight went up. *sigh* And that’s a shame. I'm only 27 years old and everything feels like blah.

It's time for a change.

Weigh in week 7

2009-08-01T20:31:00.004+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 103,6 kg
Current loss: 1,8
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost so far: 6,4 kg
Weigh to go: 33,6 kg

Sorry I've been absent last week. First I jammed my finger through a door and I couldn't use my right hand for a few days. Then I spent the weekend sick in bed. And last Thursday my sister's kind was hospitalised - he's fine now. So things has been hectic, to say the least.

Last week I gained a lot, mainly because we had a huge family dinner the night before my weekly weigh-in. That extra weight is all gone now and I'm back to 103,6kg.
I haven't done al lot of exercise last week, being sick and all, but I'll try to make up for that this week. Nothing but good times ahead!

Weigh in week 6

2009-08-01T20:30:00.001+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 105,4 kg
Current loss: 1,3 GAIN
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost so far: 4,6 kg
Weigh to go: 35,4 kg

Weigh-in week 5

2009-07-16T22:31:00.004+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 104,1 kg
Current loss: none
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost so far: 5,9 kg
Weigh to go: 34,1 kg

A status quo this week. I don't feel too bad about that. I know I ate healthy almost all the time and my exercise was ok. That will pay off someday.

It wasn't that I did al lot of exercise this week. Last week I only did one big bike trip with my co-workers and one walk. I didn't do more because it was raining all the time. *sigh* Belgium is a nice country but now and then I whished it was covered so it wouldn't rain half of the time. :) Oh well, I have to admit that I could have done some indoor exercise. But it's summer and after a long day at work (where I don't leave my desk all day long) I just long to be outside. *happy sigh*

My eating habits were ok too. I'm not counting my weight watchers points anymore. I know that's not too smart, but I just have a little bit too much things on my mind to make the effort. So, as long as I feel like I'm not cheating myself I won't start anytime soon. Maybe after my exam.

I don't have a lot of plans this weekend. It's the national holiday next Tuesday and we're taking a 4 day weekend at work. Yay! I was hoping to bike a couple of times to Ypres again, but guess what... yep, it's going to rain from Friday to Monday (and on Tuesday we're visiting family). Aaargh damn you, weather gods.

Good stuff.

2009-07-14T21:06:00.003+02:00

• On Saturday my boss organised a 54km bike trip with all the colleges and their spouses. I took us about 4 hours to make the trip. The scenery was beautiful and the company was great. The fact that the first two hours of the trip where in the rain didn’t reduce the fun we had. It was an absolute amazing and happy day. And to make it even better our boss treated us all a delicious dinner at night (shrimp croquette as starter and steak with fries as entrée). Yum.
• The 54km bike trip didn't give me sore muscles.
• We went for a 8km walk around a beautiful lake on Sunday.
• Today a friend invited me to visit her new home this Friday.
• I'm babysitting my sister's kid tomorrow evening.
• I ate healthy almost all week long. I'm not there yet, but I'm making progress.

“There is little difference in people, but that little difference makes a big difference. The little difference is attitude. The big difference is whether it is positive or negative.” W. Clement Stone

Weigh-in week 4

2009-07-08T21:21:00.002+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 104,1 kg
Current loss: 2,6 kg
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost so far: 5,9 kg
Weigh to go: 34,1 kg

Wow. 2,6 kg lost this week. That's amazing. Only I don't really know how I did it. My memory of last week is vague. It was a rotten week, having to tell everyone how I sacked the exam and cancelling the holiday. *pout* But my boss told me yesterday I was allowed to save overtime hours and take a little time off later in the year. That was really nice of him and made me feel hundred times better. I honestly need some time off work and study just to relax and have no worries. I feel that my batteries are low. *sigh* I don't know if it will be possible to go somewhere but the idea along makes me smile again and gives energy.

About the loss again. I do recall that I had some awesome workouts last weekend. On Friday and Saturday I did a 36km (!) bike trip and enjoyed it a lot. It's the road to Ypres I took and it's one hour bike trip to get there through a hilly scenery. It was an amazing workout and on Saturday I rewarded myself with an ice-cream in the best ice-cream parlour of Ypres. Just the idea of it makes me want to jump on my bike again. Yum.

For the rest I didn't do much. Right now I'm trying to keep thinking positively and not to throw me on food when I feel bad. My friend L told me last weekend to think more positively because the thought of positive thinking is a hundred time bigger than a negative thought. She's right. And I try to correct myself when I go negative again. Small steps...

Weigh-in week 3

2009-07-08T21:01:00.001+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 106,7kg
Current loss: 0,4kg
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost so far: 3,3 kg
Weigh to go: 36,7kg

Weigh-in week 2

2009-06-28T22:58:00.001+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 107,1kg
Current loss: gain of 1,5kg
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost: 2,9 kg
Weigh to go: 37,1 kg

Last week started good but then I received some very bad news and I just started eating. I sacked an exam I had to do for work and now I can't go on holiday. I have to redo the exam again in my holiday. This sucks a lot since it was my first real holiday in years. And I had lots of plans.

So I was pissed off and just started eating. A lot. *sigh* Stupid. And it makes me feel soooo much better. :-/

Weigh-in Week 1

2009-06-17T22:11:00.001+02:00

Start weight: 110 kg
Current weight: 105,6kg
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weight lost: 4,4 kg
Weigh to go: 35,6 kg

Tadaaaa! A fabulous loss this week. I'm trilled that I made it through my first week and I hope there are many more to come.
I've had hard times here and there, but I didn't cave. *proud* I even did some very good exercise this week. Friday I went for a 14km bike ride (one hour) and yesterday I did the same bike ride again without taking a break in the middle (it took me one hour and a quarter). I also went for a 7km walk last Saturday and for short one yesterday.

So, I scored on all fronts. And I would be happy as hell if I wasn't so afraid that I'm gonna mess it up this week anyway. I don't have a lot of faith in myself. *sigh*

So... POSSITIVE THINKING. I CAN DO THIS! Up to a better and lighter me!
I can do it, I just have to prove it.

Mmmm.

2009-06-14T11:14:00.003+02:00

Wednesday my boss gave all the employers a half kilogram delicious cherries. Yay! I love cherries but can't eat them a lot because they're so expensive. It's such a shame that most fruit and vegetables are so bloody expensive while unhealthy fast food is cheap. Urgh.

But, expensive or not, I promised myself for every week I eat healthy I'll treat myself with some of that wonderful fruit I love to eat but rarely do because of the price. That will get me motivated. On my list are blueberries, raspberries, blackberries, red currants, sharon fruit, passion fruit, mango's, pomegranates,... aaah I just can go on and on with this list.

I had a great week so far. Thursday was my mother's birthday so we celebrated that all day. Friday I bicycled to my sister's place. I didn't think I would make it so far, but I did and it was great. Saturday I cleaned my place, went for a 7km walk and worked in the garden for the rest of the day. And today I had planned another 7km walk before some family members comes over for a visit but it's raining buckets. I live in a great country but it should be covered.

My diet was great. Exercise was great. And I feel great too. Weigh-in is on Wednesday but so far I already lost a lot. Now, I just have to keep my grubby fingers away from the fatty appetizers and unhealthy food this afternoon when our family is coming over. Healthy food is present too but I know myself. I want and need to keep on this good buzz going. I feel happy for the moment and I want the feeling to last as long as possible.

See ya!

Hi there.

2009-06-10T21:26:00.002+02:00

Long time no blog. I didn’t make time to blog the last months. I didn’t have anything good to say. I rather say nothing at all, than to say negative things. So lame.

I vowed myself to start blogging again. It’s good for me. It makes me think of what I did in a day. It makes me realise life goes fast, and that I better make the best of it.

Today is my first day of my diet. I gained a lot the last year. Yesterday I realised that I have gained 25kg since I started my job in the accountant agency. That’s just horrible and… gross.
I don’t have any energy anymore. Everything seems so hopeless. I feel like crying when I (literally) have to drag myself out of bed in the morning. One flight of stairs leaves me gasping. I’m avoiding to go out of the house because of my size. And that’s a shame. Life is too great to spend it isolated of the world. Life is fun. And I’m done wasting it. Up to a better me.

And now the stats:

Start weight: 110 kg
Goal weight: 70 kg
Weigh to go: 40 kg (or lbs)

My goal is to weight 80 – 90 kg by New Years Eve and to be at 70 by the summer of 2010.
I can do this. I am worth it.

I owe you a better explanation than this. And I will. Later.

2009-04-12T12:18:00.001+02:00

Your Energy Level is Very Low

You're so low energy that you don't even have the strength to be chill.

There's a good chance that you're not naturally this way, but lately your resources have been drained.

Relax, rest, eat well, and use the energy you have for some light exercise.

It's all about building your mental and physical health up right now.

What's Your Energy Level?

Long time no blog.

2009-03-18T20:03:00.005+01:00

I'm studying for 3 exams for my work. Hence my absence.
I once thought exams were over forever when I started my job. Damn, was I wrong.
I like to learn new things, but I don't like to be forced to be at my desk for hours and hours. First 8 hours at work and then 3 hours at home. It's driving me nuts!

I want to be outside. In the sun. Moving. Exercising. AAARGH

I want to be a loser baby # day 31

2009-02-04T19:58:00.002+01:00

Current weight: 100,7kg (222lbs)
Current loss: 0,2 kg (0,5lbs)
Current BMI: 36,1 = Obese
Current mood: lousy

The good news is that I'm already one month on a diet and that I've lost 4,3kg. That's impressing.

The I-feel-lousy news is that I only lost 0,2kg this week.
That's not bad but I was hoping to get under the 100. And I really did my best this week.

I did two big walks last weekend. 11,5km Saturday and 22,5 km Sunday. 22,5km! That's 4,5 hours of walking, mind you. The longest I ever did.
In total I walked 7 hours last week, but what do I get? A lousy 0,2kg loss, thank you very much.

Blah.

Oh well, I'm just a bit disappointed about the weight. For the rest I'm still proud as hell that I managed to do a 22,5km walk. Hot damn! 22,5km! I still can't believe it. *grin* And the 100kg thing? I'll beat that sucker next week.

Where there's a will, there's a way.

And that's my motto for this week. :)

Yay!

I want to be a loser baby # day 24

2009-01-28T20:33:00.001+01:00

Current weight: 100,9kg (222,5lbs)
Current loss: 1,2 kg (2,6lbs)
Current BMI: 36,1 = Obese
Current mood: happy

Hot damn. I'm a lucky loser. :)

It has been a while since I was confronted so much with my super size like last weekend. I went to the café with L and hooked up with an old friend. The evening and company was nice but I mainly remember the hard time I had to move through the crowed café. So embarrassing. Damn.

Anyway it's time to do something about it. No whining but action! There are still 5 good months left to the summer and I hope to be in a more comfortable weight zone by then.

"Broaden your horizons. They're the only ones you'll ever have, so make the suckers as wide as possible." JC

I want to be a loser baby # day 24

2009-01-21T19:29:00.002+01:00

Current weight: 102,1kg (225,1lbs)
Current loss: 1,4 kg (3lbs)
Current BMI: 36,6 = Obese
Current mood: procrastinating

I'm almost too afraid to tell but I had a perfect eating week. *knock on wood* I ate healthy and normal all week long and I rewarded myself every night with a delicious praline. Mmmm.

Exercise wise I didn't do much this week. I do bike every day to work (7km back and forth) unless it's raining. And I did one 5km walk. That's it.

I bought myself a new bathing suit (size 48) but I didn't buy myself season tickets to the pool yet. My plan is to go swimming before work. My work starts at 9am and the pool opens at 7am. That must be doable.
The thing that's holding me back right now the fact that I have to study. I have to do three exams for my job (I work as an accountant)before the end of February. Every night when I come home from work (around 7pm) I'm just mentally drained and headachy. I don't know how some people manage it to combine a full time job with study. I only have three exams to do and I can't do it. Now I'm studying before I go to work, when I'm still clear-headed and can take in of new things.

Anyway that's what's going on right now with me, up to next week!

It's good to have an end to journey forward;
but it's the journey that matters, in the end.

New Year New Start

2009-01-14T21:19:00.001+01:00

Current weight: 103,5kg (228,2lbs)
Current loss: 1,5 kg (2,6lbs)
Current BMI: 37,1 = Obese
Current mood: tired

I started this year weighting 105kg. I packed on a lot during the holidays and I’m not sorry for that. I love to eat. I want to lose weight but I don’t want to be super strict about it. So, I’m enjoying every holiday that's coming.

My goal for 2009 is to lose about 30kg. That's about 0,6kg a week and that means I should weight around 75kg this time next year.

It's a dream until you write it down, then it's a goal.

And that's what I want to do in 2009. Stop dreaming and hoping. Start working and living.

Up to a better me.

Long Time No See

2009-01-11T20:25:00.002+01:00

It’s been a long time since my last post. 2009 didn't start well for me. First my car broke down, then there was the painful divorce of some friends and then there was the death of a friend.

This was the shittiest New Year I ever had. I'm just numb and empty.

Change

2008-12-21T18:55:00.001+01:00

On dit que le temps change les choses, mais en fait, le temps ne fait que passer et nous devons changer les choses nous-mêmes.
- Andy Warhol

I want to be a loser baby # day 17

2008-12-17T20:07:00.001+01:00

Current weight: 100,5kg (221,6lbs)
Current loss: 1,2 kg (2,6lbs)
Current BMI: 36 = Obese
Current mood: amazed
Current loser status: 2,5 kg (5,5lbs)

I'm doing well for a long time now and have lost 2,5kg since I started. I'm not losing very fast but I'm not watching my food hardcore either.

Slow and steady wins, right?

I trilled with my eating habits at the moment. I eat pretty much what I want to eat during the day – of course I aim for healthy. Only at night I really watch out. I try not to eat too much and not to eat any snacks late at night. Mostly I get hungry again around 9 pm and then I try to still my hunger by drinking a glass of water. So far it’s working great for me and I think this is something a can do for a long time.

Exercise wise I have been slacking enormously. Since I quit my gym I didn't do much sport. When I still was a member of the gym I was obliged to make time. Now, the cards are different. I would like to do some walking outside after work, even if it’s only for a half hour or so, but most of the time it’s raining here. I could do some exercise on my own too but I’m just lazy. There are a million things I just need to do before that and so I never get to it. The days are just to short!

I know I need to change my attitude before I change in a couch potato but first I still need to finish some important things...

Little update.

2008-12-14T14:36:00.004+01:00

I missed last weeks weigh-in because I was sick. Spend my days working and resting. Didn’t have the energy to blog.

Anyway, last week's weigh-in was around 101kg. Wohoo. I hope to hit 100 next week and my goal is to finish this year with a two-number weight. I believe in it.

Smile, it’s infectious.

2008-12-14T14:28:00.003+01:00

I want to be a loser baby # day 3 (y4)

2008-12-03T19:57:00.003+01:00

Current weight: 101,7kg (224,2lbs)
Current loss: 1,3 kg (2,9lbs)
Current BMI: 36,4 = Obese
Current mood: lazy
Current loser status: 1,3 kg (2,9lbs)

I'm so happy with this loss. Last weigh-in was only three days ago so I didn't expect much. But a 1,3kg loss? Amazing.

My new strategy is to really watch my eating at night. On most days I come home from work around 6pm. I eat a light dinner with my parents and then I try real hard not to eat anything more until I go to sleep. So far I did well. I hope to keep going on like this for a while; I need to lose some weight in anticipation of the holidays coming.

The only thing I have been lacking these last days is exercise. I quit my gym membership last weekend and I haven't done anything since then. My plan is to join the swimming club, but before I do that I need to buy myself a new swimming suit. Not an easy task when you weight as much as I do. In the meantime I want to do some exercises on my own: some crunches, bodypump and bodybalance moves.

Some time ago I read an amazing quote on one of my favourite blogs:

Pat Farmer - The most powerful thing in the world is your own will. If you really want to do something, in your heart of hearts, you will find a way. But if you don’t want to do something, you will find an excuse.

And with that in mind I'll get my lazy butt of this chair and go get myself some action!

Back where I started

2008-12-01T22:20:00.008+01:00

103

Today I weight the same as exactly four years ago, when I started my diet journey. In other words: I could have saved myself a lot of trouble and misery.

It's sad. Four years of extreme yo-yoing. The main feeling I have is disgust and embarrassment. I'm throwing my life away. What is the use of it if I keep going like this? I feel like shit because I treat myself like shit.

I still remember how good it felt to finally be at a healthy weight zone. How I swore never to let myself down again. Swore never to go back to a life with no self-respect.

And look what I did.

It's a shame.

I want to be a loser baby - # 1448

2008-11-23T11:16:00.003+01:00

Current weight: 102kg (224,9lbs)
Current BMI: 36,6 = Obese
Current loss: + 0,2 kg (0,5lbs)
Current mood: sad and exhausted
Current loser status: 5 kg (11lbs)

I gained 0,2kg last week. That was a bit a surprise since I only had one bad eating day, the rest of the week wasn't great but wasn't bad either. Oh well.

We're Sunday today, and I gotta say: this week is going to be much worse. I didn't eat well one day and I feel downright horrible. I'm tired (I had a 51 hour week at work), I feel hugely fat and what I really want to do is sleep sleep and sleep.
But I can't. I have a test for my Spanish class this Thursday and I didn't have the time yet to open my Spanish book once this semester. I'm about to give up on it.

It's time for a change!

I want to be a loser baby - # 1441

2008-11-16T21:20:00.004+01:00

Current weight: 101,8kg (224,4lbs)
Current BMI: 36,5 = Obese
Current loss: 0,8 kg (1,7lbs)
Current mood: tired happy
Current loser status: 5,2 kg (11,4lbs)

Weigh in last week: 102,6kg. Two weeks ago: 101,3.
I have two more busy weeks coming. After that I'll have more time to blog. I can't wait 'cause I have lots to tell and to achieve. Yay!

I quite happy with what I achieved the last weeks. If I look at my monthly stats I see that my weight goes down slowly. So that's good.

Hola.

2008-10-26T10:06:00.001+01:00

He estudiado español por varios años. Pero no soy buena en eso. Quiero empezar a escribar algunos posts in en español.

¡Hasta luego!

I want to be a loser baby # 1421

2008-10-25T09:54:00.003+02:00

Current weight: 103,5kg (228,2lbs)
Current BMI: 36,6 = Obese
Current loss: 2,6 kg (5,7lbs)
Current mood: proud as a peacock
Current loser status: 3,5 kg (7,7lbs)

Last week weigh-in: 106,1 kg. The week before that: 104,9kg.
If anyone is reading this (I think not), sorry about not weighting in a lot lately. The thing is, I know no-one is reading this, so why would I bother? And the other thing is, my electronic dictionary English is not working anymore (my laptop is about to crash too) and so I can't really write what I want to write, since my English isn't that good.

On the other side, I busy with working overtime, going to the gym and studying, so there's not a lot time left for blogging. I should make time, I know.

On the diet-side I'm doing well, though. I ate bad for the last two weeks but I re-started my weight-watchers diet this week (counting points and all) and so far I did great. I feel much healthier and fitter. Awesome.